david jewell poet

soon

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soon we be gettin’ the fishin’ gear and goin’ down to that river and set a spell.

soon we remember them days that had time inside of them when hours were spheres instead of discs.

soon we’ll shed clothes like dropping the rest of the chores for the day and dive into that cool water.

soon we’ll go grumbling up the gravel hill road in the old rumbly cadillac leaking gas fumes and exhaust and chug-a-lug up to the dixie highway to go out to the north edge of town to get an a&w rootbeer float brought
to us in the car set down on a tray hanging on the side of the window by a perky high school cheerleader earning some money for college with a disposition and optimism as bright as the shiny sun.

soon we’ll light cigars out in the woods behind the trees and turn green with the smoke and choke and cough and laugh and think adults are crazy and then we’ll try to drink the whiskey from the bottle we stole and choke and cough and laugh again and know they must be crazy and shake our heads and say we ain’t never gonna be like that in a million years we’ll always be best friends and catch fireflies and ride our bikes everywhere, until we can get a GTO or RoadRunner and then we’ll drive non-stop to California and dive into the ocean and swim out as far as we can before going back to the car and becoming famous millionaires.

soon we’ll build that raft and sneak out of our houses at mid-night and take it down the the river that feeds into the mississippi and ride the big muddy river all the way down to new orleans and start a band and live on the street and earn our money singing and tap dancing and playing our blues songs that will break everyones hearts when they walk by and make them want to give us twenty and even hundred dollar bills for realeasing the spirits from them and realeasing their demons and giving them a lightness like they got wings and can float a while with no worries and just see the miracle of how the light shines on everything under the sun.

soon we’ll remember what it was like before we got here and see our faces before we were born and understand where we are going next and what we are doing here and all the fear will vanish like the people evaporate from the football stadium when the big game is over and the season has passed and the snow falls and covers everything in white powdery silence with no footprints anywhere and you can barely even see the ghost of the memories of all the things that were happening out there.

soon we will be us again and I will be me and you will be you and you will be me and I will be you and we will be us and us will be everyting and everything will be everything and nothing and always and never and it seems so plain and simple and clear and sure and I have no idea why I think that or know it or why I hear the same thing from so many other people or whether we learned it or were told it or just know it but when we saw that diorama in the museum in the city that day of the neanderthal man buried with flowers all around him and a knife and some food I knew right away we used to be stars burning in the sky and some day soon we will be again and it all goes around and around like the merry go round at the fair and we get so sleepy and dream.

dj
1-14-14

eyes

eyes reach down. eyes reach out. eyes like search lights. like high beams.
eyes so hungry, devouring images, devouring landscape, devouring words
thoughts emotions meanings, reading cues from faces and body language,
but not everyone can see, we say they are blind. . . although they see in
so many other ways, and use their other senses as eyes.

I can’t imagine not having eyes to look through and see the world with.
My eyes are so hungry. I live through my eyes. I live inside my eyes.
I live behind my eyes. If I went blind . . . I’d learn to see in new ways . . .
and I have memories . . . but I can not imagine, not even a little, there is
no use trying to imagine something so unknown to me.
And there are so many ways to see. So many lenses, and filters, and ways
to interpret any information, all information… so many levels to see things
from, and the view from the top of the mountain, through eyes or no eyes,
is so different from the view at the bottom of the mountain. What am I trying
to say? And saying so clumsily? It is so rare for people to look, really look,
down into the depths of each others eyes. Such a miracle that there is so much
information there, so much we reveal without knowing it, so much
we keep hidden that we don’t even know we have. The evolution of the eyeball.
The very 1st creature who saw shadows moving underwater and seeing where things
were and what they looked like. From all life being blind to slowly being able to see.
And now, we are still blind, and maybe just beginning to see, with inner eyes, and
that may take another long time, but will change everything again just as much.

dj
1-10-14

miss understanding

(weird first thought of the day before coffee).

Miss Understanding lives in a mansion high up on the hill
and sends chaos waves rolling down all over the whole wide world.
She is so lonely up there, and she can’t talk to anyone because
her words all come out backwards and freeze in mid-air and
shatter on the marble floor or her palace. She isn’t mean or cruel,
and she doesn’t even know she is sending chaos waves that short-
circuit peoples ability to love each other. She just doesn’t understand.

Someday, when the singularity happens, she’ll be singing a different tune.
But, we aren’t sure what that song might sound like. It could be a harmomious
glorious sound creaitng epiphany and compassion and putting an instant stop
to all war and emtional cruelty and pain. Or, it could sound like a dull
tromping dirge, like an army of robots walking through the swamp of
cluelessness. together, understanding everything so completely,
but on a very low level that misses the point of all evolution,
like 20 colors of paint mixed together to make the color of mud.
But, that is for another day.

Today, Miss Understanding relaxes on the chaise lounge by the pool and
sips her martinis and chain smokes her Virginia Slims. She wants to believe
she’s come a long way, baby, but, she’s been there since the beginning of time,
since the first communication, and if anything, she’s only gotten more complex.
Say a prayer for the gal, like Nora Desmond, ready for her close up, she knows
nothing of what she speaks, but there is no doubt in her mind she knows exactly
what she means.

dj
1-7-14

flotsam and jetsam of new year

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flotsam and jetsam of new year

confused by the mishap surrounding the nomenclature.
I’m just wondering where the ostrich laid the golden egg.
I see the feathers and boas and top hats and canes,
popped champagne corks trapped in the chandeliers––
people are tap dancing on linoleum,
swimming in the fountain with little bubbly surprises crackling into their synapse
gaps
releasing some sort of bliss
or epiphany of psychedelic manifestation and
truly pure happiness~~and you know,
you hit the high seas in a little boat and you float,
wondering if it’s the hurricane or the high tide,
or if you’re going to glide swiftly
into the beach, for another
Mai Tai.

dj
1-4-14

dada nonsequitur pondering the eve of 2014

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of this madness from another shore

falling through me like roller coasters screaming with laughter

hiding in the rain from all the umbrellas running around

feeling the soda bubbles in my shoes and on my ear drums

the pancakes are called flapjacks here cause when you flip ‘em they go smack in the pan

if wishes were toothpicks my teeth would be so clean it would mystify

candles on a birthday cake don’t imply forest fires only happiness

if you’d rather change channels go ahead I might leave the room anyway go wild.

dj
12-28-13

same thing

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it is so simple when it is real
beauty is simple elegant
deep oxygen and elevation of
senses and existences swimming
up layers of dimensions towards light
everlasting

I don’t know anything about
what happens when you get there or
if you get there or if there is anywhere to
arrive in particular although I think hints are
presented in ways that must seem so obvious
to those above watching us they don’t know
how we miss it sometimes and have to laugh and
laugh because to them we are innocent and forgiven
like puppies and new born babies I mean really
what to we know–

but I think a lot of the hints I got
had to do with like, ok, look, look, look, and take a breath,
and, you see, you see, it is here, just go far inside, 
it is here, you are beautiful, not someday, not yesterday,
just now, that’s it, the hint, when I can feel it…. 
it is here… wish love beauty nature is what
muddy waters said made the preacher man lay his
bible down, “it’s that same thing.”

dj
12-27-13

shedding the past

christmas poem (sort of) and new years thing… 2013 / 2014

enough of old ways. old times. old memories. old dogs.

dodged enough bullets to get this far now where
do I want to go.

I’m carrying a house on my back full of memories.
I’m carrying a house on my back full of shame.
I’m carrying a house on my back full of fantasies.
I’m carrying a house on my back full of chaos.

enough of trying to walk through the dark forest.
enough of trying to swim across the river.
enough of trying to walk down the road.
enough of trying to enter the city fresh and alive
with a house on my back
full of tornados
and hurricanes and putrid still ponds and
rivers of fire and laceration.

enough of this house I don’t need it anymore.

no room to sleep in there.
no room to dance in there.
no room to love in there.
no room to turn around.
no room at the inn.

go to the manger.
let something brand new
get born.
a blank slate.
compassion. forgiveness.
understanding.
love (of course).
and fun.
dammit.
it is time to have fun.

dodged enough bullets to get this far now where
do I want to go.

I want to go
flow with the river.

let the river flow through me.
nothing on my back but
sweet pure sunshine
and lung-expanding
mind-unwinding
heart-enlivening
air.

dj
12-21-13

katherine casey experiments… 1st set… 12-15-13

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river

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river energy rushing through blood cleaning heart and mind
outside of time it only takes a microsecond to be brand new

something swirls at riverbank where water whirls around
catching leaves catching thoughts of past swirling trying to make sense

letting go when no one is looking when nothing happens swirls vanish
into rush of river ever onward who knows where water falls

deep dark pool full of fish another universe happening
there in spite of you unaware you are innocent now not anyone

crawls out of ocean into forest first creature reaching beyond
water now walking standing talking thinking evolution is half equation

half cosmic roll of cosmic dice or if einstein doesn’t think god plays dice
he might agree he did indeed shoot pool with minnesota fats.

dj
12-19-13

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